Loss

 I'll never understand no matter how many times it's explained to me, how can God let bad things happen his children. I bring this up because just the other day my husbands very good friend Latty lost his battle of Leukemia. This was his second bout with it. He beat it the first time, but sadly died Saturday. I don't understand how someone that was so loved by so many could be taken away from everyone.
 For someone like me it almost becomes natural to me, because it seems like every person I come in contact with dies and leaves me. You would think for me it would be easier to deal with, but it's not! It hurts more and more every time I have to go through it.  I wonder how much more God thinks my heart could handle,because to me it can't handle much more. I hate loosing someone and having to start all over again. Having to go through all the healing all over again. Some times I wish we could by pass all the hurt,anger and sadness and just go back to having some sort of a normal life. But I know that's never going to happen. There's always going to be pain and what angers me the most is I don't know why we have to feel all that. But like I am always told God has a plan for all of us. It may not be the plan we want or agree with, but it's God's plan.